Month: May 2010
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Nothing Can to Nothing Fall (Part II of III)
Continuing where the last post left off: Essential to my ultimate disintegration was the beauty of our beginning. For the next few months, I drove to his house—nearly two hours away—at least once a week. He made me feel doted upon, as though I was the final piece to his life’s puzzle. Simultaneous to […]
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Nothing Can to Nothing Fall (Part I of III)
Even as it was happening, I didn’t realize we were breaking up. This time, I missed it because I was too busy cataloguing evidence that we were “together.” Certainly, I had acted the part. I drove once, twice, each week the two hours to his place. Once there, I shared his bed, made meals, answered […]
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At One First Blow Did Shiver It As Glass
Even as it was happening, I didn’t know we were breaking up. What I did know was that my guts roiled whenever I thought about him coming home. I’d had four months alone, living in that house, making new friends, starting a new job—while he lived an hour and a half north, living there, […]
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Meanwhile, While the Kid and I Were Listening to ‘New York, New York’ and Eating Toasty Cheese…”
“A reputation once broken may possibly be repaired, but the world will always keep their eyes on the spot where the crack was” –Joseph Hall My husband recently comprehended the richness of life in a way that would have defied planning. By accompanying our daughter’s 4th grade class on a three-day field trip to the regional […]
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Start Spreadin’ the News
A few weeks ago, my husband and daughter went on a three-day field trip with her 4th grade, leaving Paco and me rattling around the house with nothing but matches and beer to amuse ourselves. Nominally the adult, and in an effort to avoid situations requiring bail money, I decided to label our time together as Paco and Mamma’s Glitter-Filled […]
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That Gentle Rustle You Hear? It’s the Sound of Monet Rolling Over in His Grave
“I love this place,” breathed Paco, looking around in wonder. “There are zombies and aliens everywhere.” Of course there were. We were at the end-of-semester community college art show. Speeding up to a trot, Paco cruised down the concourse, calling, “Hurry up! Here’s a Super Mario made out of mosaics! Come ON. You won’t […]
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They’ve Begun To
“When two people decide to get a divorce, it isn’t a sign that they ‘don’t understand’ one another, but a sign that they have, at last, begun to.”–Helen Rowland Our next door neighbors recently signed divorce papers. In the ways that divorce can be awful, it has been. The husband has been angry, betrayed, wanting […]