Goodbye, Fifteen

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  1. chelle says:

    hehe time is an amazing thing eh?

  2. ds says:

    "I'll get you my pretty, and your little dog, too. Aaahahahahahahahha!" Keep on enjoying, keep on reading, and please please keep on writing.

  3. Jenn @ Juggling Life says:

    If Philip Roth was a blogger this is just how he would have said it.

  4. heartinsanfrancisco says:

    I could not get through Pynchon's "Gravity's Rainbow," to my shame, and the line in "Goodbye,Columbus" that troubled me was when Brenda, a good tennis player, stopped rushing the net because she was "afraid of her nose," which I always thought should be "afraid FOR." "Portnoy's Complaint" was the most hilarious book I had ever read, and the most outrageous. The guy has chops.

    When I was 15, I devoured everything Thomas Wolfe had ever written, then Eugene O'Neill and Tennessee Williams and James Baldwin. Paul Engel and Muriel Rukeyser's poetry, and Walt Whitman's because he was from my home town and for several years, I won the Whitman Poetry Prize. And let's not forget Mad Magazine, probably the best of all. But I would never, ever willingly be a teen again. I even worry about getting through it again in my next lifetime.

  5. monica says:

    but you know, 15 year old Jocelyn won't listen, she has to live it all herself… I agree though – it is way more relaxing and fun being in the fourties than in the teens.. But it is a good thing you don't know that until you get there!

  6. Pearl says:

    Gogol Bordello has a song called "I Would Never Want to be Young Again" that pretty much sums it up for me. I mean, sure. I miss my young body (and my young face), but the drama?! Oh, my!


  7. Becky Cazares says:

    Yes! Teenaged angst gone forever (just say 'no' to reincarnation) and the 40s are something special, indeed. But I'm particularly fond of 50s (aack, how did I get here so fast?!) when I get to choose my own destiny and am no longer chained to the office feigning enthusiasm for that important memo, and yes, of course, boss, I can get you that report by noon. I think each decade has its own angst and lessons learned and I'm grateful for both.

    Also grateful for a "new" author to add to my read-after-college list! Future technological wonders will never find a substitute so delicious as curling up in a favorite chair with a good book. And THAT'S something I can do every decade until the end.

  8. Shelley says:

    Wow. Just wow. I love your writing. I often look at my own 17 and 14 year-old daughters and just think, "you have no idea what's coming." And isn't it surreal to be on the other side? I remember being them. Not wanting to need my parents, but still needing them. I remember thinking how cool I was, and how much my parents didn't know. I know my 14 year-old thinks I'm clueless. And one day, she'll probably be the clueless mother of a 14 year-old, and I'll be able to do to her what my mother now does to me. Laugh. I'd love to write a letter to my teenage self, so I could tell her that things aren't always the way they are right now. In fact, I think I've said those same words to my own kids. Maybe in a way, with your own kids, you are writing to your younger self. Richard Bach toyed with the idea of sending psychic messages to his younger self. I love his books. I'll stop babbling now. 🙂

  9. Green Girl in Wisconsin says:

    Where were you when I was a teenager?
    Amen–amen amen amen.
    I'd never go back. Never, ever. Angst sucked.

  10. kmkat says:

    The forties are better than the teens, the fifties are better yet, and the sixties — which I am just barely beginning — are a whole new world to explore with creaky knees and wobbly ankles and eye floaters that have permanently fused into the center of my vision. Life: it's way cool, especially when we are not angsty young'uns any more.

  11. secret agent woman says:

    I certainly would not be 15 again under any circumstances. But 25? How about my 25 year old skin and body with my 47 year old brain? Yeah, I'd take it.

  12. Vic says:

    I'm printing this one out, Jocelyn.

    I remember, at fifteen or sixteen, thinking that anyone over eighteen was to be pitied. The good stuff was already over. What's sad about that is that my childhood wasn't all that great (especially the pitting out and the Loverboy. Also Journey. Some Journey songs make me sick to my stomach to this day.)

    How wonderful to have been so wrong back thing – life has been so much more than I imagined then.

    And you write beautifully.

  13. Anonymous says:

    Truly beautiful, in every sense.


  14. Patois says:

    Switch "Dr Pepper" with "Mr Pibb" and we've got the same post. (Oh, except for the part where yours is so fuckin' fabulous.)

  15. AmyTree says:

    I wuv you.

    My senior year boyfriend was gay. It explained SO MUCH. Like why he was the gayest Sky Masterson EVER in our production of Guys and Dolls and why he gravitated towards pleather. He's so much happier now.

    And so am I.

    🙂 xxx

  16. lime says:

    i hardly know what to say except it seems my 15 year old and my 41 year old inhabit the same body and mind. maybe that's why my jeans don't fit and i can't remember shit. in any event, they both are in agreement about not wanting to lead a life of quiet depseration. the 15 year old tells me to pony up the $7 to jump 2 stories on trampolines while hooked into giant rubber bands so the 41 year old with her bad back and all can age with zest like her grandmother how hot air ballooned at 75 and her aunt who parasailed for her 80th birthday.

  17. diane says:

    Whoa! I took in a deep breath after reading that. I would jump and clap if it wasn't so late and quiet in my house. That was amazingly well written, and I.AM.SO.GLAD. that I found you.
    I took the liberty of scrolling down your blog before reading this, to see what kind of place I had wandered into. I laughed at the Hannah Montana wig, loved seeing the sunflower that looks like one in my garden, and really smiled at the photos of your kids at Point Beach. Almost forgot, who DOESN'T like Nutella?
    See you around the block. You've got yourself another follower. 🙂

  18. Jeni says:

    I've been trying for the past 3 years -since I started blogging -to get my daughters interested in reading blogs done by people, such as yourself, for what they can read, enjoy, laugh and especially for what they can learn about themselves through the eyes of others.
    Today -I have to send my older daughter the url for this post. I. Absolutely.Have.To.Do.That!!! For one thing -because she is 42 and second, to show her that I am not the only person in the world who preaches for people to read, read, read and then, read some more! (It took what seemed like forever for her to finally fall in love with books but it sure as Hell made my day -actually maybe even my life pretty well complete -when I realized that had finally happened with her. (Younger daughter -didn't take half a life time to pick up on how great books are as she started getting more and more into them by the time she was about 14-15 years old and truly in love with reading books by the time she was 18-19! Still have to do some work on my son in this area though.
    Thanks for such a great reminder about the awesomeness that exists between the cover of the wonderful thing called BOOKS!

  19. Debbie says:

    I read "The Ghost Writer" by Phillip Roth when I was around 15. I was absolutely gutted.

    I'm one of those nerds that has to write down quotes from my favorite books and Phillip Roth, along with Thomas Wolfe are two of my biggest contributors.

    I just found you this morning. Love your blog!

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