Where I’m From

A lesser daughter would have been mortified and fled down the corridor to stuff herself into the nearest locker, slamming the door and refusing to ever come out.

A lesser daughter wouldn’t have stood there, hanging close, her face flushing red as she, too, fought back tears.

A lesser daughter wouldn’t have told her oblivious father, who was trying to herd the family down to the Scholastic Book Fair, “Hey, Dad, we need a minute. Your wife’s crying over here.”

A lesser daughter wouldn’t have made me cry, right there in the hallway during parent/teacher conference night.

I couldn’t help it.

I’d been hearing, at random moments during the previous few weeks, that she’d written a poem for Language Arts class and that she could take that poem down from the wall and bring it home after the parent/teacher conference with her home base teacher. The fact that this doesn’t-talk-much kid mentioned it more than once alerted me to her excitement.

Thanks to childhood training with my Finnish-ish father, I know full well that if someone of Northern European/Scandinavian extraction mentions something more than once, it’s equivalent to an Italian climbing the side of a bell tower drunkenly at midnight and ringing the carillon until Mount Etna erupts in response. Seriously, if my daughter mentions something three times over the course of two weeks, it’s something.

So we finished her conference with her home base teacher (standard stuff: “So smart; such a great kid; only one thing: it would be nice if she raised her hand and participated more”), and then she went out to the hall and peeled her poem off the wall. Knowing that my role is to create the clamor that helps express my kids’ excitement–they all don’t mind, at our house, if I externalize the things they have tucked inside–I demanded, “Lemme see it! Lemme see!”

She handed me her poem, and we walked down the hall until we could pull over in a quiet corner so I could read it.

That’s the point where this mother of a 13-year-old girl burst into tears, right there in the middle of the middle school, and the 13-year-old didn’t roll her eyes or give me the “Maaaw-um” of embarrassment or stuff herself into a locker. She stayed close, got red, and fought off tears.

For someone of Northern European/Scandinavian extraction, this was equivalent to an Italian rending her clothes, yanking out tufts of her hair, beating her breast, throwing her hands to heaven, and collapsing into a heap in the dust as the tinker’s cart pulls away. She’d wanted to buy two buttons, you see, but the tinker had none.

That poor Italian. With all the clothes-rending that goes on in her daily life, it’s a wonder she didn’t need more than two buttons.

So my reserved daughter stood there, awfully close, and absorbed the compliment of my public tears.

After a minute, I gasped, “Okay, I’ll go to the bathroom and do a little recovery there. I don’t need to keep standing here, crying, but I can’t stop. The thing is, about this poem, Allegra, is that it’s just the best thing. It’s just the very best thing.”

It’s not that the assignment was original; I’ve seen this assignment come home before, during other years of school. It’s a somewhat standard assignment.

What moved me so very much–what moves me still, even after I’ve read the thing fifteen times–is that her poem feels like the biggest thank you a kid could give. Her poem shows that she sees her life clearly. Her poem shows that she’s taken stock of something even as she’s in the midst of it. Her poem shows how it’s all the little things in life that pile together into a more powerful whole. Her poem shows that she knows she’s lucky and loved. Her poem captures it all.

Then I read it again and start crying all over.

Do not let the fact that I also cry every time I watch a commercial that uses a John Denver song convince you that my tears come cheaply. Oh, all right: they do. But these poem-tears are different tears. These are “My kid gets it!” tears–very different, the discerning observer will note, from John Denver tears.

I love her poem. Just as much, I love that she loves her poem, too.

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The 13-year-old wrote:

“Where I’m From”

I am from tricycles and fisher price people

From getting rolled up in blankets

I am from the overflowing flower gardens

Tall and colorful, and blazing in the sun

I am from painting on the easel in the kitchen.

I am from the photographs and drawings, books and magazines

That make the house

Not so empty and bare.

I am from forests and lakes,

From my Norwegian great grandparents.

I’m from bunny hats

and too much disco.

From the “good jobs” and the “keep goings.”

I’m from mosques, turkish tea, and headscarves

From fairy chimneys and cave homes

And the call to prayer.

I’m from the sound of running shoes hitting the ground

And breathing hard after a race.

I am from gliding up and down the snowy hills on a Sunday afternoon

and the click of the camera capturing every important event in my life.

From the peanut brittle on Christmas Eve,

and the scent of roast beef invading the kitchen.

I’m from the smell of banana bread and popcorn throughout the house.

I am from all these photographs, videos, memories, and stories

That are just waiting to develop into more.

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Inspired by “Where I’m From” by George Ella Lyon
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  1. A sweet, sensitive child, to have written this poem.
    You are a very lucky mum; yes, ‘she gets it.’

    These meme/poems have been on the web, I have seen many by adults not half as moving as your daughter’s.

  2. Are you sure she isn’t some wizened old woman with laugh and worry lines and the look of a thousand thousand suns in her eyes?

    That is a smart young lady. You are a lucky mom.

  3. I cried and she’s not even mine.

    I love that she wrote of the unique not the trite; specifics, not generalizations. After all, what is superb writing but the marriage of keen observation and effective translation?

    Bravo, Allegra! And bravo to you, too, Jocelyn. Bravo to you, too.

  4. What a beautiful thing. I’m not sure what makes me want to cry more, how keenly expressed her impressions are, the pictures they paint, or how clearly she sees what a treasure your time together is. It is wonderful on so many levels.

  5. “I am from the photographs and drawings, books and magazines
    That make the house
    Not so empty and bare.”

    Now, there, that brought a huge smile to my face. Even better, that she stayed with you while you cried. I want a daughter! Your daughter.

    (I understand the Scandahoovian stiff upper lip. So glad my mom mixed with a Bohemian along the way.)

  6. I was tearing up before I ever got to the poem. I come from stoic Scandinavian stock, too, and I know how little is expressed outwardly. Your daughter is very special indeed.

  7. Aw, hell. Good work, Jocelyn. She gets it. You done good. (cue awkward one-armed hug and back thumping)

  8. Despite your several warnings, this man who just turned 42 and has never met your daughter, shed a tear, too. My daughter will be 13 next year and she is of a similar sensitive disposition. Your daughter is so clever (but, then again, you already knew that, didn’t you?). This poem, however, is not to do with cleverness only, it’s to do with being human. It’s the bond that unites us all. Thanks for this post. I really enjoyed it. Now, I’ll read the poem once more and cry again.

    Greetings from London.

  9. It’s OK if you cry……….I have read her poem-probably five times over four different occasions- and I STILL tear up and overflow. Having followed you from before Turkey, most of the references are familiar. Not many adults, self included, could produce such thinking.

  10. Wow. What a truly wonderful and remarkable poem! Really makes my post about male facial hair seem suddenly shallow, and quite lame.

    Oh, and I’m with you on John Denver.

  11. What a beautiful poem – simple but so eloquent. I can see how you got choked up- it really is so wonderful. She is a very sensitive child.

    I read your post on your other blog. Sorry I did not do it earlier but we have been moving so much that I waited until I had time to read it well. You are a terrific teacher. I don’t know how you have the courage for all this and the stamina. Schools are so different here. One thing I found is that schools are so easy in the US – even in elementary school in France I used to go from 8:30 am to 4:30 then another hour of study, and had plenty of home work – there is so much to learn. To love teaching that much as you do is a gift for sure.

  12. My stiff upper lip lasted until “I’m from the sound of running shoes hitting the ground…” and then I lost it. Big fat ploppy tears. Allegra’s writing is so warm, wonderful and appreciative of all the experiences you have given her. What great traditions to carry on into her own family, including a sense of adventure and the value of travel – you’ve done well – all of you. I’m sure your “Finnish-ish” (gotta love that!) father would be proud too.

  13. Oh my. Oh. OK, I am sitting here in an airport lounge i Denmark, catching a plane to Norway. With all my scandinavian heart, I get it. And get all teary too. Lovely. Heartwarming. No worries for that one, Jocelyn., for sure!

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